A simple guy living in a complicated world

I need a holiday...

2011-03-16T09:48:00.001Z

Well I have just come back from one but it's been non stop the last 4 week...

10 days on glorious sunshine followed by 2 weeks of virtual non stop gallivanting the country meeting clients followed by non-stop partying at the weekend all accompanied with a dose of finding a new home is not easy...

Sure I am still mildly recovering from holiday mode but I could really use another week off just to recover... (the aim is to stay clear off the booze until further notice cos that sure as hell ain't helping)...

And WTF is wrong with People in London - have they not heard the concept of cleaning your damn house? (I am currently looking for a new place to live) and almost every house I have seen is an absolute DUMP (I had to use capitals) I mean seriously people if you can't afford a cleaner get the damn vacuum cleaner and mop out yourself... It's not rocket science you know... Sheez...

And then I saw what is officially (at least in my books) the worlds smallest studio apartment - as in when I say small I mean tiny - picture the smallest space you have seen and this place is smaller - my mums pantry is bigger than this sorry excuse for a studio... You literally could not swing a cat in there (not that I have any intentions of physically swinging a cat) but you get my gist...

Well hopefully the 20 other places I have yet to view may have some potential...

Oh and my phone is officially dying - I dropped it on Saturday and cracked the glass on the screen and now it keeps on losing signal and sometimes just doesn't respond... Could the next 4 days have any more drama is store for me??? It's seems my life just seems to attract it... Hehehe...

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Back to the race....

2011-03-07T11:18:00.001Z

Well well well - the weekend is and it's now back to the rat race...

I must say though that it has been one helluva week and weekend... Firstly I completed my first week back at work after a very well deserved and exhausting break - I probably need another holiday just to recover from the last one - but we will lead that story for another day...

Anyhoo the weekend has been absolutely friggin awesome and the only way to describe it was that I spent the last weekend in a truly rockstar way...

What was supposed to be a polite weekend ended up in ms partying so hard that I barely managed 8 hours of sleep all weekend... It was pretty spectacular though...

I discovered a new club in London - which I may add was pretty good. It was a good change from the typical London club 'scene' - I should add that it was a straight venue seeing as I was with that group of friends, but still a great night out nonetheless...

Friday night was a polite affair that still resulted in ms getting home at 4:00 am (I know I said polite) but hey we just hung out at a really nice bar, then on for a late meal (my second one of the night I might add) with some old friends / schoolmates - some of whom I hadn't seen in over a decade - I know - I am not the greatest at keeping in touch...

Saturday on the other hand was supposed to be another polite evening, however that didn't quite happen - we visited 5 different bars/clubs which was followed by a frantic search for more drinks and food at 6:30 am and shockingly we actually found some... In the process of all of these shenanigans we ended up getting lost in parts of London that I had never been to ( I should add I rarely venture south of the river) but it was still fun nonetheless...

Sunday was spent cheering the footy in the afternoon (go Liverpool) followed by an attempt at eating dinner and finally my most annoying chore - ironing my shirts for the week ahead... Which wiseass came up with the whole concept of ironing clothes - I know you get shirts that supposedly don't need to be ironed but they are either (a) crappy material that feels like it's not natural or (b) still need to be ironed... I know I have to look presentable but seriously take it from me - ironing shirts on a sunday afternoon after a crazy weekend of partying and still partly drunk and or feeling the onset of hangover coming on with a complete lack of sleep is a biatch....

Anyways I have an interesting week ahead that is going to see me travelling halfway across the country and should be fun (not)... Someone should seriously start giving people rail miles - I know I would sign up (hey maybe I can start the whole idea)...

Have a great week the rest of you - and I shall be posting whilst on my travels...:-)

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Introductions

2011-03-02T21:58:00.001Z

Well technically this should have been my first post, however better late than never... So here goes my introduction to the world...

Well who am I??? I am a 20something year old who lives is London and leads a pretty simple yet quite interesting life...

Simple yet interesting??? Well yes - simple because to the world I am just another guy living his life, yet what they don't know is that I am gay... Not such an interesting you may say - well it actually is because I am not out... Again you may say there are millions out there like me who lead a double life, and yes they are and I salute and to a certain degree envy them - yet I know the hardships we face each day of our lives... Each morning we wake up and put on an act to please the rest of the world. Why do I do it - well because I come from a culture where being gay is simply not acceptable... Why??? I have no clue - we are still human beings, we still breathe the same air, we still travel on the same tubes, we eat the same food, yet there are some aspects of society that treat us as outcasts... It sucks and it's a right bitch to deal, but here I am trudging along every day living the life... I am not bitter or angry about it (well maybe just a little) but hey I choose to be in the closet...

Anywho this isn't a post to rant about society, blah di blah, it's to introduce myself to the world...

Well as I was saying I am in my mid 20's, I live in London and have a pretty old life... I moved here almost 11 years ago and I love my most aspects of my life here and recently I accepted that I am gay and not bi as I have been telling myself for a long long time...

I grew up in Kenya (I love that place and no matter where in the world I am that will always be my home and someday I will retire there).

Other than that my life is pretty awesome, I work hard and I play hard, and depending on the people I am with I will either party on the 'scene' or off the 'scene' but one thing you can be sure off is that I love and know how to have a good time.

I have always known I was gay and I just refused to accept it - I guess it was the family background and other social stigmas that were ingrained into me from a young age that made ms deny this but hey better late than never... I still do and may or may not continue to lead a double life, but the one thing about me is that I don't pretend to be a different person around my separate group of friends worst from the fact that if my straight friends do ask me if I am gay I tend to generally deflect the question rather than answer it...

Anywho in a nutshell here's me:

27, gay, works hard, plays hard and is pretty chilled and welcome to my blog....

A.S.G

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A huge leap for one man - hopefully a tiny step forward for society

2011-03-01T19:45:00.001Z

Here I was on my daily commute to work today - yet another cog in the wheels of society - and I come across this article in the paper.

It made me think about the society and world we live in. Society as a whole claims to have evolved with the time - I mean here I am living in the 21st century in one if the most developed nation in the world yet people are still not as accepting of peoples choices as they claim to be. Living here and now in the free world we are taught of free will and are encouraged to make our own choices, to not be afraid of who we are and that the world and society will accept us for our choices, yet there are hundreds of thousands, sorry millions of people out there like me who have to lead a double life because as much as we are taught about free will and encouraged to not be afraid, we still can't truly openly be the person we want to because of society...

Don't get me wrong - I don't personally have anything against society or the world, however it does piss me off that despite everything we are taught about, in this supposed free world there is still such a huge amount of hypocrisy within society. Yes there are a small minority of people out there who are tolerant (excuse my choice of word here) of peoples choices of their own sexuality, yet the majority of the world (as much as it claims to be free and open minded) simply isn't...

I am not blaming the world for my being closeted - that's a personal choice at the moment - but merely stating that people within certain professions still have to lead a double life because of their peers, and for that I applaud Mark Bright for taking coming out, and I applaud his peers for accepting him for the person he is and hopefully this will give more people the courage to not be afraid - me included...

A.S.G

Acceptance & Choice

2011-02-28T22:15:00.000Z

1) “Acceptance is a person’s agreement to experience a situation, to follow a process or condition (often a negative or uncomfortable situation) without attempting to change it, protest, or exit.”

2) Choice
n.
1. The act of choosing; selection.
2. The power, right, or liberty to choose; option.
3. One that is chosen.
4. A number or variety from which to choose: a wide choice of styles and colors.
5. The best or most preferable part.
6. Care in choosing.
7. An alternative.

Let me start off by introducing myself… I am just another 20something year old simple boy/man/human being who is living within a conflicted society.

The reason I chose to write about acceptance and choice was simply because off late I have accepted certain things and realised that I did have a choice in accepting the person I am.

To put it bluntly I am a gay male who is not out and has just recently discovered himself. For years I battled with this – I thought of myself more as someone who was straight or even bi but couldn’t bring myself to truly admitting the person I was. I don’t blame anyone for this, I don’t blame society or the world for not being able to accept myself for who I was, I just wasn’t ready to accept it, and even now I may not be ready but one thing I have learnt is that in life we all have the choice to accept the things that life throws our way and it’s that acceptance that makes us the person we are…

I have started this journey to accepting myself, and it could be a short journey or it could be a quick journey, I know not, but this much I do know, accepting who I am has made me realise that the world is my oyster and I have the choice to live my life in a way that makes me happy.

I chose to share this journey with you my fellow reader and hopefully it will be a pleasant one, but like each journey we undertake in life I am sure this one too will have it’s ups and downs, it happy moments and it’s moments of sadness.

Let the journey begin…